i guess xanga died...n everyones at myspace...well me n mimi swore not to ever fall into the trend of myspace.... plus i never made my xanga...jess n my sis did anyways....

i write in here once in a while...

summers been great...fun...living life on edge...parents think im living the scary night life n im never home...REBEL...i guess...

im happy...meeting new n interesting people all the time...LOTS of pple...way too much.... need to make some kind of decision...

kinda of happy....somethings missing..im lacking sth....true bliss perphaps.. missing U like crazy...wishing the wats ifs.....

im laughing on the outside n sighing on the inside...im confused...

searching for TRUTH n ANSWERS....

just like peyton n lucas....

anything possible right....cliche statement but feel pple with so much hope sometimes....

after months of manic hidden depression...ive beginning to climb up the big hole in two steps... but the one person dat made me really happy decide to push me down again...so ive fallen....once again into the big hole...n everytime i fall...i take everything down with me...work school friends family....so yeah...school works BAD again...i really wanna do good but its soo hard becuz lifes sucks...*sigh*

i think ive made some bad mistakes...im sorry....

i need to watch the o.c. maybe i could escape into their lives so dat i dont have to live mine....sad but true philosophy dat is applicable to many pple...(took the idea of my friend) oh rights...lets see if i cango n watch it right now...

i dont understand u anymore...its like im not part of your life anymore...stop pushing me away....i dont want to go away but ure making me...its like ud ont want me in your life anymore.....ure leaving but ure spending time with everyone else but me....wtf is up with dat....

i cant stand it anymore...im going crazy with your hostility....stop it... tears never used to fall...now its raining like all predictions came true...why...everyone sees it mine way or maybe they r even more positive dat its possible....but ure just pessimistic i think or sth...watever..

if its concerned both of us...we both shld make a decision rite...but watever....go ahead n be stupid/selfish/individualistc.... no one even thinks ur way...BLAH! leave me out of the decision....how abt leave me out of the equation..

i need true friends dat i spent more time with....i cant believe graduation is soooooo EXTREMELY close dat i barely gasping for breath....im making up so much work like crazy with the trip n ap exams.... *breathe*... i just wish dat maybe....theres a million of things i wish i had done in high school but enver accomplish it yet i still feel satisfied with high school....to younger ones out there or anyone at all: take chances, jump at opportunities..live life exactly how u want it... make it fun, fulfilling, fabulous!!!! try not to have regrets n most importantly...be happy!

wanna feel true bliss once again...
i think i just lost it...
i detest stupid pple...or not...
BLAH!

fix my xanga...love the picture...hmm yeah..

oh WOW PROM(s).....

it was memorable...i like it pretty much...enjoy most of it....parts drama here n there but it was GOOD>...i have to say the committee n our chairs did a pretty dang good job with decoration huh.....*bow*...lol...

JUNIOR PROM with kelsey...dat was pretty fun too....lol...too bad we couldnt make guys dance more but yeah thanks kelsey for taking me..i had a good time plus i met new people like drake, bryson n alex....*LOL* they crack me up soo much....funny pple...fished in our center pieces....dat was weird...

SENIOR PROM....awesome...love the lillies keane *muah*...hmm.. wanted tog et a carnicature drawing but yeah took toooo DANG long... n the FOOD was delicious...i like it =p...miss dessert though..coz i went to take pictures... *shucks* ....i dont think my pictures came out nice enough....i realised that i was sooo busy...i didnt even went around the room to take pics...not THAT MUCH>...*sigh*...lol...i barely step across to the other side of the room...hmm....side show was junk coz its only on one side of the room... like of HECTIC PRETTY MUCH...hmm dancing was good i guess...didnt take a grp pic...=(...dats ok though... AFTER PROM...FUN LIKE HELL....went to eat at dennys...slept....pearls...eat...home...slept... i knocked out like a lot of times...i was pretty much TIRED>....btw.....i hate dat kevin guy from paul brown....*grr*....yeah but i like it...*muah* to keane for being such a good date..

I NEED A JOB>...i owe my parents lots of money...but i was just sooo sick of my workplace...hmm so yeah...hook me up if anything......PLEASe...

sooo not ready to grad...but sooo ready to get out of school....hmm... ambiguous emotions...irony...lol....

my lifes full of ironic drama....got to love n hate it...

well....we'll shall see....